10/24/19 23:21 East Northport
Back at my parent’s house.
Back on the room I grew up in for a few years, shared with my
brother. I slept on one side and Dave
slept on the other. On the drive down, I
had a chat with Emma Tess, and we made plans to see each other on Sunday night,
she may take the next semester off. Had
a wonderful conversation with Mo Cheeks about the inner child in all of
us. I have not subscribed to this fully
since I feel at a certain age I should be mature enough and old enough to lose
the inner child. This is a real dilemma considering
what I wrote about last night and here are those feelings – emotions rising up
again. Not to the same degree as last
night. I want to be aware of my inner child, the fear of abandonment, but
honestly, I am alone for the most days.
I drive to work, eat alone and drive home and spend the night alone. Yes, share a house with two other guys. But I really don’t feel alone. Meli and I share brief moments, even a short
call or FaceTime is enough since often we are joking. And like a knock or the
silence, it is there. Maybe we are going
through another phase? As I wrote last
night, I can choose to feel miserable, wallowing in self-pity or I can choose
to appreciate this time to write and get my thoughts down. This too shall pass.
Thank you for reading this
