Blue skies, snow flakes in May

5/9/20 16:39 Bethlehem, PA

The loneliness is kicking in.  I can give into and feel the misery or I can make healthy choices.  What can I do at this moment instead of self-pity and stirring the pot of fear? Exercise, clean the house, make a healthy meal.  Write for my blog.  Foe the past few weeks, Meli and I have been watching movies, at least one night of the week on Netflix and Amazon Prime.  I am grateful for these moments with mi esposa, since we are not sure when we will get together.  My heart is going out to the families who are on-line for food, who are unemployed, suffering and wake up in desperation.  The first responders and those who are heading to work in supermarkets, the essential workers, I am in awe.  The bus drivers and postal workers, those who are in factories, production at our plants.  Those who are working at Sharp, Thank you.  May God bless you and your families.  I’ve noticed the media’s penchant for bad news, the black hole which is thousands and thousands of light years away is getting closer.  A killer wasp that can wipe out the bee population, the untold deaths from Covid-19 to name a few.  There are many times when I feel frightened.  I was looking forward to a sunny Spring day, but it is chilly and even saw snow flurries.  Yes, it is May.  It is not the end of the world.  This will pass and we will come out all of this closer and stronger and perhaps take into consideration all the good in each of us. Even if we are wearing masks and follow lines in supermarkets to keep us aligned.  Find the good.  Patient endurance. 

Some good news?  I am in negotiations with a publisher for the last novel I completed, Bombastic Adventures in the Arizona Desert.  Better news?  I can see the blue sky over Bethlehem.  Focus on gratitude and let it blossom, like the leaves.

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Grateful for this moment

1/7/20 21:27 Bethlehem, PA

This was one of those days when the work in the office was piled on, when each second counted and there were demands and tasks that needed to be addressed.  It was a reminder that the holiday season was far away and the reality of the day was settling in.  It’s not too late and yet I want to call it a night since tomorrow is going to be another round, but here is the thing, I will not change it.  I love to be busy since it keeps me focused and I am hungry for more of it.  I went for a run earlier.  I didn’t want to.  After work I had to go grocery shopping and I am grateful I have money to buy the food I want, which is primarily vegetarian.  I am grateful for Meli.  I am grateful for the program which is keeping my sober.  I am grateful for my health.  I am grateful for my children and know they are healthy and we will talk again when the time is right, let go and let God.  I am grateful for my parents who are still alive.  I am grateful for my friends.  I am grateful for my cousins.  I am grateful for my sisters who called me while I was in Costa Rica to wish Meli a happy wedding and a long marriage. I am grateful for my brother for his sense of humor and strength.  I am grateful to God for this night.  To run in the snow wearing shorts and feeling as if I have gained some weight which I did, let’s face it, I was on vacation.  I am grateful for the roof over my head and I am very grateful for this present moment since it is a gift we are sharing together as my words seep in and I wish you can be grateful as well.

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