11/22/19 10:59 Mexico City
It’s my love’s birthday today. This first birthday we are spending together. I love waking up next to Melissa, there is so
much love. Another example of the long
distance relationship is savoring each morning. I am here. Feeling better since I was buzzed from the
wine last night. I had a beer at the
apartment, I was thirsty. We strolled
around the neighborhood last night. There was a vendor selling Christmas
lights, men walking their dogs, joggers running around the park, men playing
soccer or basketball. And we bought
water, made tea and fell asleep. It’s
warm here, 70 degrees, actually very warm at this time in the morning. Ma and Pa called to sing happy birthday to
Meli and she wants to call them later so we can have a chat. Let’s see how that will work out. Ma loves to chat, but only on her schedule,
let me take that back. There have been a
few occasions when I would call and she would ask if I needed to talk, get
whatever it was off my mind. No, we are
good. I had one of those moments last
night when we were leaving the airport, was I going to get fired? I have this running monologue. I read an
email and misconstrue it and let the false message or scene fester in the dark
regions of doubt and fear. Let me be
blunt, it is low self-esteem. It was one
of those moments. Meli was able to
reassure me, but I need to reassure myself and fill my mind with positive
attributions, look at the good I have caused. Look at the business I have
brought to my company. And it is only a
start. Because, even the external influences can be limited. Deep down I know I am the only one who can
recognize my God given gifts. Each of us
has unique God given gifts that we can cultivate. I love writing and hope this message can
inspire – in spirit others.
Thank you for reading this.
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